Well Sean’s been given Deployment orders. The UK is pulling out of Afghanistan, but quickly turning around into new terrain. He will be part of a small group of soldiers going in and scouting the area for 6 months.
This has taken away both our June and December visits due to training exercises and briefs. Yay (sarcasm).
I am starting to feel really numb to it all honestly. The distance, the time apart. It’s affecting me in a negative way. I see acquaintances and people i don’t like more than i do Sean. I talk more to my old High School friends and old acquaintances than i do Sean.
I still love him of course, i just can’t keep this distance as a long term thing. And i so badly want a career in the music industry in Nashville. It’s hard to have two people, with two separate dreams and career goals, in two separate countries, trying to have one, happy and rewarding relationship.
just sitting here in my dorm eating cotton candy, because for some reason cotton candy makes me think of sean.
Well tumblr, it’s 12:30 am so it’s officially my birthday! It also means that Sean officially comes in tomorrow! I can’t wait to snuggle my boy Friday night.
11 freakin’ days! There are no words to express my excitement. <3
My baby is going to be kissing me.
My love is going to be cuddling me.
My best friend is going to be laughing with me.
My boyfriend is going to be with me!
happy happy happy.
-Disney on Ice and a Downtown stroll by the river
-Botanical Gardens and hiking if my foot is up for it
-Dave & Busters
-$2 movie theatre
-Taylor Swift Concert DVD and Katy Perry Movie + ordering a heart shaped pizza with drinks
-Double date with my best friend Aaron (so they can finally meet!!!!!!)
-Downtown horse & carriage ride (still not sure)
-we ALWAYS go to cute Thai restaurants when we are together (London, Richmond, Portsmouth, Argentina…. so i need to add Nashville to the list)
-A songwriter’s showcase because there is nothing like them
-go to The Mall and Kohls (US is MUCH cheaper than UK with clothes- Sean wants to stock up)
-The Parthenon & Centennial Park
I don’t know if we will get to do everything- especially since i still am not fully mobile with my foot injury (driving and everything is still not going well), but a lot of these are for sure happening.
I can’t wait! Just 1 day after my birthday i get to pick him up from the airport. I want to go after class to the dollar store and buy chocolates and balloons and then to the hotel he will be staying at and check in before i pick him up. I want to decorate the room for him so it’s all amazing when i get him to the hotel. :)
I really can’t wait for the 2 weeks i get with him. I am going to give away ALL my hours at work (except for maybe Saturday morning) so i have free time after classes with Sean everyday (and luckily my classes end by 1 everyday!)
I love music. I feel it in my veins, my body, my heart, i feel it in me.
Songs go straight to my heart. I love songwriters- i love artists too, but the songwriter is the one that wrote that story, that sent me to that place of joy or sadness or fear- whatever emotion their lyrics drove me to.
I am so thankful i am a songwriter and i am so thankful for the chance to write and grow in my talent in my class and just in general. I love that i get to hear songs that no one else has heard before on a weekly basis- beautiful, strong songs that speak to me. I love sharing with other songwriters because it is amazing being the first one to hear a song and knowing in the back of your head that the song can be a hit- it can touch many and make others feel the same way you did when you heard it.
I love Sean for supporting me in my dream. He believes so much in my songs and in what i want to do. I go back and forth between artist management, publishing, and songwriting, but i love that i feel his support in my love for music. He knows the magical effect music has on me and he helps me nurture that desire within me.
On a side note, for my songwriter’s class i have an assigned topic for our songs due Wednesday. I’m struggling a bit with writing this one, but i know i will get to it- i just can’t stress too much.
On another side note, i’ve been offered a great position on the student run record label to work in the publishing department. We actually get to license songs and deal with royalties and everything! I am so excited that this is starting up this year and that we are partnering with 2 major companies, so we are working nation wide, not just in Tennessee. I am also extremely happy that i was recommended for the position.