I have the cutest little care package in the works for Sean. The theme is “Yoda one for me” and i decorated it accordingly. So far for the package i have gotten:
-Yoda pez dispenser
-Yoda goblet/cup from Target with sweethearts inside
-A bag of hersheys Kisses
-A bag of hersheys Hugs
-A chocolate bar that says “Happy Late Birthday”
-Batman laffy taffy
-Light saber with M&Ms inside
-Personalized M&M’s with a picture of us
Other things i can’t get to fit in my box :( - i think i need to get a new box that’s a tad bit bigger
-Time Travelers Wife DVD
-A Heart shaped box of chocolates that says “You’re Super” and has a super hero flying on it.
One of the things that bothers me most about being in a long distance, army relationship is that people around me don’t seem to understand that sometimes Sean and I have to set a time and date for our skype calls- it’s like a date. So when friends ask me to go out and i say i am busy, and my excuse is a call to my boyfriend, they don’t see that as a legitimate excuse. When i haven’t had a decent talk with him all week, this is more than a legitimate excuse to not go out and do something i don’t even feel like doing (especially when some of my friends are taking their boyfriends).
just sitting here in my dorm eating cotton candy, because for some reason cotton candy makes me think of sean.
Well, he’s gone once again. The last few days are always the hardest. You want to enjoy and cherish every second you have with the one you love, but in the back of your head you know that it’s only for a short time, and that soon you will be alone again.
This time it feels REALLY hard. I’ve never had Sean visit me during the school year before, and I’ve never lived my “day to day” working/schooling life with him around before. He would drop me off at school for my classes, and be there waiting to pick me up when i got out of class. I gave away most of my work hours so i wouldn’t lose any time with Sean, but the few hours i did work, Sean got to come with me and work out (i work behind a desk at a gym). I had good morning kisses and pillow talk, we cooked for each other, we did everything on our list of things to do in Nashville, and we just lived in this amazing, happy place for 2 weeks.
I just dropped Sean off at the airport a couple of hours ago. We got there plenty early to check him in, so we sat in a secluded area of the terminal and drank some starbucks. Those last 45 minutes are dreadful. It’s such a mind game, because you want to kiss and touch and feel his presence so strong while he is there next to you, but your heart is breaking because it is entirely going to end in 45 minutes.
The drive back to my dorm was painful. The lonely steps echoed as i made my way to my room. I walked in and saw a mess of things i had left earlier, in a rush to get back to Sean. I’ve sat here for the last hour going through our finances, organizing my room, and putting away things i had left out. It’s hard with out him, but i know that it’s only temporary- and i am beyond thankful that i got this visit from him.
I am here for any girls in the same situation. As soon as i stepped out of the airport into the parking lot i texted a fellow milso I’ve met through Tumblr. Sometimes you NEED to talk to the person that actually has walked those tearful steps and shared that last kiss at the ticket stand. <3
Stay strong ladies.
Ps: I’ll be doing a picture post soon.
This weekend has been a sad reminder of the chaos and terror in this world. Friday’s attacks on the US and UK camps in Afghanistan by the Taliban, Saturday’s explosives killing another British troop, and today the news of two British Soldiers getting shot after trying to aid a local Afghan (who was trying to lure them in, because it was a set up).
This is all in 1 weekend- i was sleeping, studying, going out for dinner, working behind the desk at a gym, and probably complaining about my foot injury and my school work.
Praying for the families affected by these incidents and praying that I don’t get so preoccupied in life that i forget what it is to live and be thankful for everyday.